Posted by Janet (66.60.169.96) on May 05, 2005 at 15:29:56:
My name is Janet Lee, my father passed away july, 31 2002, when i was 14 years old, he was a younge energetic 49. It has almost been three long, lonley, painful years, but it seems like yesturday when he made the last phone call to me telling me he was going to die. the problem with me is that I loved him so much and im still only 17, but befor he died i wouldn't talk to him because i was mad at him for almost 3 months, i will never forgive myself!!!! i was mad and he was dying. what a selffish bicth i must of been to not be daddy's little girl and help him like i always did. So now I cry everyday, i havn't dealt with his death, this is the only time that i have ever told anyone these things. WILL THE PAIN EVER GO AWAY???? IT JUST HURTS SOOOOO MUCH!!!! I know im not the only one who's father has died so please reply tell me what you think, cause I can't live another day crying, and hiding. im sad, im young, i still need him in my life. where will he be when im married??? he won't get to walk me down the eisle, i don't get to see that loving smiling face, he cant make me laugh anymore, my kids, will they be sad??? bcause i know he would of been the best granddad in the world. you know his parents are still alive 84 years old both of them, so why my dad, why me???? ;>(